Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Bumps in the road
Things seem like they've gone off track a bit. Nothing quite seems to be going right. I'm worn out by aspects of life that I keep starting posts about and never get a chance to finish. All of this is making it hard to do the things well that I want to. Like being Bean's mama. Our sleep problems returned full force. The week of her going to sleep by herself was blissful and felt like a hard won victory. Then it just stopped and is worse then it was before. I feel like everything I do about it is wrong. I'm struggling in the one area that I usually feel like I'm doing pretty well. I may not know how to be the daughter of aging parents, or how to tackle trying to conceive at the RE's with a toddler, or even how to find time for my husband when I have the demands of so many others laying in front of me, but the one thing I always felt like I was doing a good job of was being Bean's mama. And now I don't feel like I'm doing that well either. I'm not sure what I need. A night off maybe, or just a week without something bad seeming to happen. I don't know. I'm down obviously and I know that in the grand scheme of things, life is good, and I'm thankful. I'm just struggling and instead of sitting here in silence because I don't have time to explain myself, I wanted to at least let you all know an idea of what's going on. And hopefully things will quiet down a bit and I can write more in detail, because I really need it.
Posted by Ordinary Girl at 2:43 PM