Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Bumps in the road

Things seem like they've gone off track a bit.  Nothing quite seems to be going right.  I'm worn out by aspects of life that I keep starting posts about and never get a chance to finish.  All of this is making it hard to do the things well that I want to.  Like being Bean's mama.  Our sleep problems returned full force.  The week of her going to sleep by herself was blissful and felt like a hard won victory.  Then it just stopped and is worse then it was before.  I feel like everything I do about it is wrong.  I'm struggling in the one area that I usually feel like I'm doing pretty well.  I may not know how to be the daughter of aging parents, or how to tackle trying to conceive at the RE's with a toddler, or even how to find time for my husband when I have the demands of so many others laying in front of me, but the one thing I always felt like I was doing a good job of was being Bean's mama.  And now I don't feel like I'm doing that well either.  I'm not sure what I need.  A night off maybe, or just a week without something bad seeming to happen.  I don't know.  I'm down obviously and I know that in the grand scheme of things, life is good, and I'm thankful.  I'm just struggling and instead of sitting here in silence because I don't have time to explain myself, I wanted to at least let you all know an idea of what's going on.  And hopefully things will quiet down a bit and I can write more in detail, because I really need it.


  1. We all have those days, OG, when we feel the worst (insert noun) we can be. It's up and down, isn't it?
    So sorry for the sleep thing. I have no advice to give you, since I have no idea how George finally got to go to sleep by himself. But I have to tell you that our evening routine includes at least 15-20 minutes of running around, which makes him squeal with delight and tires him enough before bed. He sort of quiets down during bath and in general falls asleep soon after I put him in bed. I have to be near, otherwise he gets all hyped up, but it's a small thing after all.
    Maybe Bean has something that bothers her? A tooth, a scratchy throat, I dunno? Whatever it is, I hope it goes away soon and she starts sleeping better again.

  2. Sorry things are rough right now! Hope everything works itself out soon.

  3. I'm sorry things are a little rought right now! Big hugs to you. At least having this time let's you know that an easier one is on its way. I hope sooner than later.