Hello to everyone, including everyone coming for ICLW. In case this is your first time stopping by, let me tell you a little about myself. I'm a SAH mom to a 13 month old baby girl after trying for three years to start our family. We went through 6 IUI's, one surgery, one miscarriage, and a chemical pregnancy before we finally got our BFP that stuck. We've already started thinking about trying again to get our Bean a little brother or sister and I think we'll be back in the RE's office very soon.
I started this blog because I realized after almost a year of being a mama, that I was still dealing with a lot of the baggage that comes from infertility. I didn't have anyone that I felt like I could really talk to about it all, so I decided to reach out to the community that I had been reading and watching from afar for years. I cannot tell you how glad I am that I did that!
I have to admit though that I've been a bit of an absentee blogger recently and before that I was a little scattered. I've been sharing bits and pieces of why that is, but I'm ready to tell you all about it now. There are two main reasons that I haven't been able to blog as much as I'd like.
As I've mentioned before, my parents are in the process of getting their house cleaned out to move closer to us. So we've been busy helping with that. And, as I also mentioned, my Aunt was recently diagnosed with breast cancer. She's started chemotherapy and while she's doing okay, she's in her 70's and it's wiping her out. Emotionally she's just starting to really realize what's happening and the fact that her hair just started falling out I think is the real physical manifestation of what she's going through, and it's hitting her hard. So I've been trying to be there for her as much as I can even though we live a few hours away. It makes me sad that she's spent her life taking care of other people and now she doesn't have that many people to take care of her. I want to do as much as I can, but it's definitely hard to find enough time in the day.
The other reason that I've been super busy, that I'm really excited about, is that I started my moms group! Right after I started blogging I was testing out some moms groups and was having a really hard time feeling like I fit in any of them. So I started thinking how great it would be to have a moms group for people like me who had started their family either through infertility treatment or adoption. I thought and thought about it and finally just went for it. And it's been so great so far! We've had two play dates for our kiddos and I've had a great time. We've talked about all the typical mom stuff but we can also talk about infertility and support each other. I finally feel like I have some people who I can see face to face who understand where I've been and where I'm probably going again very soon, and that feels really good. It's been a lot of work though that's for sure. But it's worth it, for me and Bean. She's been having such a great time and I love having her have the chance to play with other kids.
So that's what's going on here! I'm committing myself to blogging for the next week though and to seeing what's going on with everyone else in the blog world. Because this little blog is what got me started with this idea. The support I felt from people all over the world, made me realize what a difference reaching out to this community can make, and it gave me the confidence to go do it in the world immediately around me. So welcome! I'm so glad to have everyone visiting and I promise to have lots of new posts for you to read.