Sunday, July 22, 2012

Cleaning house

Today I was cleaning up my bedroom and I finally took the box off the top of my dresser.  It's my med box from our last cycle, filled with my extra viles of medicine, needles, alcohol wipes, etc.  The sharps container and one box of alcohol wipes were still by the sink in the bathroom.  Even after we got the good news, I couldn't really put them away.  I was still convinced I might need them soon.  Today I boxed it all up.  I just moved it to a shelf in the top of my closet, because I know I'm not ready to get rid of it yet.  I know there's still a possibility that I will need it again soon.  But for now it's out of sight and hopefully out of mind.  I've been feeling very lucky the last few days for my life, my friends, and my family.  It's easy to just think about the scary and bad in the world, especially at times like these.  But I'm making a conscious effort to try and put it all out of my mind.  There's only so much you can do.  At some point you have to just live your life.  So today I boxed up how we got pregnant and I'm just focusing on being pregnant.  And I promise, one of these days soon I'll have more to talk about then just how scared I am to let go and enjoy this.  I'm really trying hard to get there and I'm so thankful for all the support I have along the way.


  1. It took me a while to box up our stuff, too. I ended up donating it to our RE, and even though I was ready at that point, it was still hard. I hope it gets easier for you to enjoy your pregnancy deserve it!

  2. Oh hun I totally get it. I still haven't gotten the guts to box it all up, and even if we had to do it again soon I wouldn't need a lot of it because we have frozen embabies! So don't feel bad. I am still so freaking excited for you!

  3. That's a big step! Love and Hugs!