Thanks to everyone for the words of encouragement. We're down to just one feeding a day and I can't quite believe it. The first night that I dropped the middle of the night nursing, Bean was pretty upset and was up for two and a half hours. I stuck with it though and the next night she didn't even wake up! I knew that was too good to be true and it hasn't happened again, but she hasn't been sad about not nursing at night, so I think we're really making progress. My goal is to drop the last feeding this weekend and we'll be done.
I have to admit that there's a little part of me that's kind of sad about all this. Breastfeeding has been so easy and special for us, I feel so very lucky. I kind of expected my body to stink at this just like it has everything else baby related, but it has done an amazing job. I know that we're incredibly lucky and I breastfed Bean for much longer then I had ever planned. This is just another one of those milestones though that reminds me that she's growing and changing before our eyes. She's becoming more and more of a big girl everyday and while I love every second of it, it's just going by so fast. So I'm going to hold her close every night this week and enjoy the end of a very special time in our lives. Hopefully it will keep going relatively smoothly. It just breaks my heart to have her so sad, and know that I could fix it if I really wanted to. I just have to keep in mind that we have to do this eventually and now feels like the right time. Ready or not, our little Bean isn't a baby anymore.
Oh, sweety, you brought tears to my eyes...
ReplyDeleteIt is so bitter sweet, this growing up and having to accept it, with all the ups and downs.
Hugs.
Thinking of you.