Frustrated!!!

It's been a busy week with a lot of emotions running through my head after our ultrasound last week.  I've been on and off the phone with doctors the whole time.  Trying to figure out correct dosages for my B6 and B12.  Trying to make appointments with current and new doctors and I'm getting more and more frustrated with the medical profession.  Seriously, why is this so hard????

One of the things wrong with me (which it feels like the list is always growing) is that I have hypothyroidism.  My OB told me to have my thyroid checked once a trimester by my primary care doctor.  I did this last time around and it was no big deal.  Then the perinatologist told me that I should be having it done every 4-6 weeks.  So I immediately got an appointment with my primary care doctor and went in a few days ago.

Unfortunately I have switched primary care doctors since my last pregnancy and the one I'm currently seeing is worthless I discovered.  I'll be changing again as soon as possible.  When I told her what I needed she stammered a lot and basically told me that she didn't feel comfortable doing it.  Now, I'm pretty sure if I had the authority, I could dose myself.  All I need is the test results and what I'm guessing is just a freaking table in a book somewhere that the doctor looks at to see what your dosage should be if your results come back at a certain level.  This doctor actually was asking me what my thyroid hormone level should be.  And I knew.  AND SHE WROTE IT DOWN!!!  I was beyond livid with the whole thing.

In the end, she refereed me to an endocrinologist to do this because she didn't feel like she could.  She did run some blood work and got back my current level which she said was okay (and I called and checked what it was to be sure, since I knew the correct level AND SHE DIDN'T).  She also said she'd check it again in 6 weeks if I wasn't able to get an appointment with the endocrinologist before then.  So I called right away to make that appointment, only to discover that my primary care doctor had already made one for me, which she didn't tell me.  It's on October 23rd.  2 months away.  I'm due at the end of January.  So yeah, just in case they can't see me in 6 weeks, which she already knew.

In case you can't tell I'm beyond angry about the whole thing. Angry because as hard as I work and try and do everything every freaking doctor has ever told me to get pregnant, stay pregnant, and have a healthy baby, I just can't do enough because I can't do their freaking job for them too.  Why is it so hard to get these people on my side???  The nurse at the endocrinologist when I was telling her I needed to see someone before that gave me a lot of, uh huh, oh, yeah, which all had no feeling or concern behind any of them.  She put me on some, probably imaginary wait list, and now I get to figure out, most likely on my own, where to go from here.

I'm so tired of feeling like I'm all alone trying to bring this baby into the world even though I'm surrounded by supposedly qualified professionals.  No wonder I worry so much.